It turns out procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It’s a neurotic self-defense behavior that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.
You see, procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.
But in real life, you can’t avoid doing things. We have to earn a living, do our taxes, have difficult conversations sometimes. Human life requires confronting uncertainty and risk, so pressure mounts. Procrastination gives a person a temporary hit of relief from this pressure of “having to do” things, which is a self-rewarding behavior. So it continues and becomes the normal way to respond to these pressures.
Particularly prone to serious procrastination problems are children who grew up with unusually high expectations placed on them. Their older siblings may have been high achievers, leaving big shoes to fill, or their parents may have had neurotic and inhuman expectations of their own, or else they exhibited exceptional talents early on, and thereafter “average” performances were met with concern and suspicion from parents and teachers.
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This blog is usually where I come to reflect. Right now, I am grateful for the Rite Aid Rx Savings program which provided me with my meds for super reasonable prices. This is not an ad - I’m just really impressed.
Before I left to visit my family, I had two awesome interviews, but I have heard no word yet from either. One company I know I won’t hear from for a few weeks, but not hearing from the other company surprises me. Of course it has only been two weeks. Why does time feel so much longer when you want something?
Either way, this works in my favor (for now) since I leave on my cross-country train tour at the end of the month. Ain’t nothing getting in the way of that.
Also, I am experiencing muscle jolts in my limbs on the regular. Anybody else have that problem? Bueller?
I love how this medication reminds me that I haven’t taken it in over 48 hours by making me feel like I’m going to vomit up every single one of my organs.
I want more.
Some people know how to push your buttons, almost as if they were put on Earth just to piss you off.
It’s even worse when they appear to enjoy it.